FallenStarZ

Regret wif a Happy life

2009-08-24T20:51:00.000+08:00

So long no post... Very lazy post and nowadays nothing to do on Com... Nowadays relatively quite happy, when upset, onli for abt one day or so... So life's good for me i guess. But to add on... A bit of regret in me T.T
i had to agree i was a bit harsh in my previous post on 10 july... So yea Sry ><
Now nothing much to do in sch except hang out wif sean and plan camp, NCC admin, homework. Trying hard to get high scores for CA2 so tt it MIGHT be easier for me in SA2.
NEED TO PASS overall to get com back in room. It's seriously irritating to get com in the living room. No privacy. ><
Today no story to tell yea... Tired n Eyes so sleepy. But i guess i won't sleep early tonite, gotta wait for my 'sis' n fren to sleep first b4 i do Hahas. Okiie thn i end here. Go do NCC admin, filing n camp stuff ^.^ Cya Guys
And seriously, to Sly:
Sry man if ur reading this, i was too harsh in my post previously, jus anger tt got me to wrote tt, i've learned. Hope uue dun take it to heart n learn to be friendly too =X but actually ur alr quite friendly to me whn ur not shouting and forcing ppl to do stuff. Hahas.

2009-07-11T00:35:00.002+08:00

Hey photos of my collection of stuff toys... I seriously nvr done this b4 but having a Hobby... is kinda life-fulfilling.

2009-07-10T23:25:00.004+08:00

So bored and lonely not ps so long no post. Very busy and tired now... Try to spend all my time with my Best Fren ^.^ almost all hahas.
Recently he got unwell with sore throat and fever and he thinks he has H1N1... Scare me badly... But whatever it is i won't avoid him. I rather take his place. Hahas sounds corny but too bad i'm not gay neither am i a girl hahas.

I love all my Good Frens and Most of ALL my BEST FREN. And i do insult them sometimes but i knw thr's a limit but some ppl does not knw tt there's a limit in insulting or teasing ppl and i hate tt kind of ppl. NO respect for their Friends nor concern of how they feel and i can shamefully tell u i am very sad to hav met one of those kind of ppl.

And its from my sch,(notice i dun even use a 'he' bcos he has no rights to be a human in my eye) and known him since sec 1... SYLVESTER GREGORY GUNALAN is a bloody show off aka Big Shot who keeps insulting one of my fren and thinks he's a big shot to command ppl arnd and carry tales arnd his own little 'self-proclaimed frens'. hahas well if he loses some his frens easily i am so not surprised.

Why does some smart ppl hav to be ignorant? Its just not fair to giv them the knowledge. They DON'T DESERVE IT!

REALLY hope this guy can change my opinion abt him. HATRED is not a GOOD thing. HATRED was brought abt by Satan. I really wish i dun hav this hatred but sometimes i cant help it. Hopoe Sylvester as a Altar server will change and commit to humility and humbleness.

I really hate missing ppl T.T especially my Best Fren, Sean T.T i hate it... It hurts to miss... Hmmm... i'm too compassionate and i am too risky. I put someone/something so impt to me in my mind and keep this belief tt they are mre impt then me and i must hav them safe or at least know that i can contact them or get to them easily and anytime i want.

This is risky becos once i cant fulfill wht i want to do for them or it, i feel irritated or anger myself and will be very MOODY and i just HATE IT ><> Don't wanna go on ler... Too Painful i guess... Below is a quiz i found from my fren's blog and his blog is very painful to read too bcos its used to be so similiar to my case and its very sad T.T hope he'll hav some form of help from God ... Ok i gtg ler... HEART FEELING the pain ...

All of the 14 people must do this quiz, unless he/she doesnt have a blog. (or rather, had already did it.) Write the names of 14 people you can think off the top of your head, then answer the questions.

1. Sean
2. Dawn
3. Samuel
4. Ashton
5. Leon
6. Ryan Leong
7. Manickam
8. Sylvester
9. Marc Kenneth
10. Mel Dominic
11. Soo Yong
12. Gregory
13. Claudia
14. Yi Ping

Questions:

1) How do you get to meet 7? [Manikam] SGS... Sec 1

2)What would you do if you and 13 never meet? [ Claudia ] I would not have known how to argue with a Girl at such a young age

3)What would you do if 1 and 12 date? [ Sean & Gregory] Erm... unless Sean ever turns gay but even if he does... he might not go for Gregory so... but if he does... i'll just FREAK OUT

4)Have you ever seen 14 cry? [ Yi Ping ] Yupp =(

5)Would 4 and 11 be a good couple? [ Ashton & Soo Yong] Impossible!

6)Do you think 11 is attractive? [ Soo Yong ] Erm... not to me but to the girls mayb

7)What's 2 favourite colour? [ Dawn ] OH GOSH... sad to say i dunnu

8)When was the last time you talk to 9? [ Marc Kenneth ] We are classmates... today i jus spoke to him

9)What language does 8 speak? [ Sylvester ] English, Tamil, abit of SUCKY chinese

10)Who is 13 going out with? [ Claudia ] Clueless.

11)Which grade is 12 in? [ Gregory ] Sec 3

12)Would you ever date with 10? [ Mel Dominic ] NO!!! Never

13)Where does 5 live? [ Leon ] Changi... to be precise, beside changi prison i think

14)What's the best thing about 3? [ Samuel ] Too MATURE and of course a good confidante and good fren... known him for 5 yrs

15)What would you want to tell 10 now? [ Mel Dominic ] Why did i even think of ur NAME ><

16)What's the best thing about 8? [ Sylvester ] Smart and very good at being a Big Shot ... I dun like him. Wrong qns to ask me

17)Have you ever kissed 5? [ Leon ] NO ! but i did slap him b4 though

18)What's the best memory you have with 7? [ Manickam ] Hmm... class outings in yr 2008... cant rmb which one... hahas

19)When is the last time you're going to see 6? [ Joel Tian ] Hmm... mayb another 2 mre yrs... or aft we go into our tiertiary education

20)How is 14 and 12 different? [ Yi Ping & Gregory ] Age, Gender, Race, Name, Religion

21)Is 6 pretty? [ Joel Tian ] Hell NO!

22)How do you meet 5? [ Leon ] Secondary school. hmm not sure if in primary school i saw him b4

23)Is 1 your best friend? [ Sean ] Oh coincidence... YUPP he is =D

24)Do you hate 12? [ Gregory ] Nope

25)Have you seen 4 on the last month? [ Ashton ] SADLY... NO T.T

26)When was the last time you talked to 3? [ Samuel ] Erm... on msn, its at 6 plus. In real life, abt 1 plus

27)Have you been to 5 house? [ Leon ] Nvr stepped into his house but saw it from downstairs hahas

28)When's the next time you are going to see 10? [ Mel Dominic ] DiaoZ Dunnu Dun Care!

29)Are you close to 13? [ Claudia] Close Relative

30)Have you ever been to a movie with 4 before? [ Ashton ] OF COURSE... We SADLY ... 'were' BEST frens

31)Have you ever gotten into trouble with 8? [ Sylvester ] Yea i jus F***ing scolded him on MSN ><

32)Would you give 2 a hug? [ Dawn ] Wished i had but NO hahas

33)When have you lied to 3? [ Samuel ] LOLS it would be so dishonest to say i've nvr lied to him but probably unknowingly i lied to him hahas

34)Is 1 good with socializing? [ Sean ] Duh of course if not how would i hav bcome his Best Fren

35)Do you know secrets about 9? [ Marc Kenneth ] Erm... yes i do... But they're secrets... cant tell hahas

36)Describe the relationship between 12 and 14? [ Gregory & Yi Ping] Country- Mates if not they are TOTAL strangers

37)Best thing about your friendship with 9? [ Marc Kenneth ] Had fun when we were in sec2 but thinking abt it, it affected my studies badly so its not relli a good thing

38)Have you ever had a crush on 12? [ Gregory ] DIAOZ!!! No

39)Does 14 have a boyfriend/girlfriend? [ Yi Ping ] I'm not sure

40)Have you ever wanted to punch 1's face? [ Sean ] NO!!!! Never! unless something so wrong happen but it'll take alot of hatred from my HEART to do tt ><

41)Has 2 met your mother? [ Dawn ] NOPE!

42)How do you get to meet 3? [ Samuel ] Pri 5 i first saw him we hit off at Pri 6 abt maple story and got really close

43)Did you ever physically hurt 3? [ Samuel ] If playing arnd is counted then YES

44)Do you live close to 7? [ Manickam ] Nope i dun think so.

45)What's 8 favourite food? [ Sylvester ] DUNNU! DUN CARE!

46)What kind of cars does 1 have? [ Sean ] Toy ones or real ones? hahas he has no real ones but toy ones probably

47)Have you ever travelled anywhere with 9 before? [ Marc Kenneth] Arnd SINGAPORE

48)If you give 14 $100, what would she spend it on? [ Yi Ping ] She'll spend it on 'wht girls spend their money on' . TYPICAL FEMALE... hahas

2009-07-04T00:48:00.003+08:00

A pic of Cherry(purple) and Shawn(blue). Sadly forgot to take Ashley before sean bring home T.T.

2009-07-03T18:57:00.003+08:00

Hmm... So long no post liao hahas... i be sure to make this post a long one then hahas ^.^

Its been a VERY nice holiday during this JUNE. Well half of it was nice, the other half not very memorable. But thinking of the NICE part makes me forget the unpleasant one, so i'm happy with my HOLIDAY. Mostly i spend my holidays with SEAN. I think 3/4 of it was spent with him hahas. I enjoyed the last week ^.^ On mon, tues i went over to Sean's house to stay ^.^ then wed we went to sentosa then thurs sean came over to stay over at my house till sat. We had lots of fun ^.^ Then school start ^.^ i felt quite good gg to sch, staying at home was not enjoyable at all!!! except when someone plays with me something online ^.^ Then my NCC post is gonna be announce only nxt week, it was delayed one week bcos of H1N1. The parade is also pushed back one week >< stupid H1N1... btw i also got my class T-shirt! Its bright orange >< imagine how outstanding hav i been the whole day... but this is the first time i got a class T-shirt, so quite like it, but the sad part is, this shirt is not what my other good frens are gonna get bcos their in a different class T.T sobx ... haiz no choice la... Btw now i got 3 Kids liao ^.^ Cherry, Shawn & Ashley ^.^ Cherry is older then shawn and ashley are twins ^.^

their so cute, unfortunately i cant bring them all home, ashley has to go with Sean, then i take Cherry and Shawn. But they'll meet everyday in sch i guess ^.^ i'll try to bring them everyday ^.^
hahas dun be mistaken... our kids are CARE BEARS. hahas we're collecting them now. Cherry is 'Share', Shawn is 'Bedtime', Ashley is 'hmm not sure... tell ya nxt time =P I also done something which i nvr thought i would have done in my young age... and i totally dun LIKE IT >< i went for a facial which practically did not help at all... onli for one day my face felt better then after that ... back to normal...

Lastly... bad news... i sprain my leg big time >< its so pain T.T sobx... haiz... but at least i dun feel so bad bcos still got my best fren concern for me ^.^ anyway i also no tell anyone besides my frens. Tmr got wedding cocktail party to attend, then sun go church can see Sean... Actually i kinda call him 'Kor' even though he's younger by 3 months... dunnu why, wished he was my bro... hmmm... i think that's about it...^.^

hahas now it comes to the things(phrases) i learned that i find meaningful... lets think...

'Love was only a word until you put meaning into it' this is damn meaning and i like it!!! Its actually trying to say that one did not know what was 'love' truly until someone else came and showed him/her. ^.^ which is quite romantic ^.^ i love it.

'2 people can never be the same and its the difference that can make a whole'

this one quite... difficult to explain. Its like saying everyone in the world sure hav some unique factor in them, and there can never the same person with the same personality, but its the difference in personality that can help each other become almost perfect by helping then with ur unique personality ^.^ quite meaningful. This can be used in love relationship or Friendships or even kinship =D

Hmm... think thats all... KK gtg guys ... leave a tag if u wish to comment on the post ^^

2009-06-19T00:55:00.002+08:00

Sry for not posting for so long, quite busy with stuffs. Today came back from spec course. What's important to me is the spec badge ^.^ I was so afraid i would not pass the airmanship test. Lucky i did ^.^
Well i also learn more than NCC stuffs, alot more.

Missing someone really does hurt... Looking into the skies... looking for my happiness...
During the camp was quite lonely, not even one of my platoon mates whom i'm on good terms with, was on my group. Well... Felt the true meaning of Alone. Sometimes i would just sit there staring, thinking, praying...missing.

In my world, nothing has the ability to make me terribly upset except someone, it used to be 2 people, now only 1. But that person also has the ability to make me VERY happy. Well... its worth taking the risk. It always is for me. No matter how much hurt i have felt, i still carry on. I dunnu why, probably it because i still have that wish in me.

Weirdest thing is, i would wake up in the middle of the night, dunnu why and just stare into the sky, because i was sleeping next to the window, i wish time would turn back and my name did not start with a 'B'... Wish so many things would change, but its impossible.

Being so close to someone really hurts. There are things that they do that will hurt or things that happen to them that hurt u all because they are close to ur heart. Taking so much hurt has weakened me greatly, i have this guilt in me. I've done something so terrible... i would never forget it... ITS A DEEP SCAR IN ME. Nothing can ever clear it. I would never be able to face that person in real life.

He's so hurt now, This guilt will remain in me forever. T.T its a dark secret i will never be able to forgive myself for. When i saw him today, i feel like i'm just a F****** Bastard... why did i do that? Wht was wrong with me?
Nothing i do will ever mend his hurt. Can only wish him the best ...

I hav strayed off the lord's path, doing my best to find his footprints again so i can follow it... DOING MY BEST... :( Lucky i still hav my best fren. Wish i won't hurt him too. :'(

GTG... dunnu if i can sleep tonite, just watch video till i sleep :'(

Dropped 18 _____ tonite T.T

2009-06-09T09:42:00.002+08:00

Morning Guys ^.^ woke up so early today dunnu why... anyways could not sleep early. Today will be going out for the whole afternoon with dad. watching movie 'Termintator Salvation'. So i decided to post now.

I just like this saying, 'What goes around, comes around, What goes up, must come down'. It's saying that things revolve all around this earth. What happens yesterday might happen again but just to different people. It also explains that those who go so high will in the end, just come back to the bottom.

Hmmm... meaningful sentence... Hahas. That's all i guess, short post. MIGHT post tonight, see if i am too tired or whether something interesting happened... ^.^ Byes

2009-06-09T00:22:00.002+08:00

Hurt... ... ... ... ...

Why do u do that to me? It's pain... I tried my Best. I took all i could from u, i helped u in every possible way, i see no enemy in u, but u took me for a tool. Just a ROUTINE... OUCH...

Ue pour it to me, whom can i pour it to? ...

I can only do it here. Why do u keep HIDING? It HURTS!!! STOP IT!!!

Dun hide ur sadness behind another smile... it only hurt me more... STOP IT! I don't know what to do anymore, u don't change, i try SO HARD T.T sobx T.T

8th one Dropped so far... Each carried away my happiness. Please give it back :(

How much trust can i put in you after what you've done? Why do u not understand me? Why do u not treat me as ur Best Friend? Do you know what is a Best Friend? Why do follow along when u are not willing to? Why? Why? Why?

It hurts T.T Please don't do it Again T.T I beg you T.T

2009-06-08T18:25:00.003+08:00

So bored now... Today Sean came over to my house, discuss a bit of mutuals, had lunch then played dota and xbox. Left at 5.30pm. Now helping out his Restaurant City lvl up. He needs ingredients but i dun hav :( Nvm... Waiting for him reach home. Dunnu whether i wanna 1 v 1 him on dota today.
There is a common phrase that i had heard b4 but nvr really tot of it till ytd when my mum mentioned it.

~~Love conquers ALL~~

I feel this line is powerful and True. Its like if uue love someone, uue cn go to great lenghts to help or sacrifise for that person. Whether it's a love for ur family, friend, animals or a loved one.

One could go to GREAT lenghts to help his family and Friends do things or sacrifise for them. One could also go to Great lenghts to help the things they love/like. e.g animals. People would go out to fight for the rights of animals or the misfortunate using LAW. And that's the good thing about love. It is like the strenght in some people, The Drive in some people and the only Reason some people live on this planet, because they hav love and they are loved. So this line 'Love conquers ALL' really is proven by the world today. But this line does not only reflect on the good side. It has a bad side. When if says 'Conquers ALL', it does not exclude one's life. One could sacrifise a lot of things, including their own welfare for love. And that is not very Good to some people. They do things beyond their ability and in the end hurt themselves. This not only applies to Families, it applies to Friends and relationships.

Love Kills!~~ Sometimes

Well.........

Love is Blind~~

People are sometimes blinded by love, their sight are clouded, filled with love or care beyond their control.
Love is beautiful! But it may also just be a Blessing in Disguise. It takes no sides. It's neither bad nor Good. It's neutral... So one must always be careful when handling 'Love'

Thats all i hav today... Cya agn ^.^

2009-06-07T16:54:00.000+08:00

This is a very nice song... w a video... It's a worship song.

2009-06-07T15:35:00.002+08:00

Hey, today wake up 10 plus... go church for 11.45 am mass service. Quite moody >.< dunnu why actually. Saw 'Someone' in church... So much have been in my mind... i dunnu why. I seem to listen to whatever someone says carefully and relate it to whatever i am thinking of... I hate it >.< but i cant stop. I just saw a meaningful line and i feel it's so TRUE:

When it's over, It's the end, If it's not over, then it's not the end.

This line alone has many meanings behind. Even i am somehow confuse with it, but I know that it's true. If something is completed or past, it's the end. If it's not, then it's not the end...

I know it's random but i just like that line so i decided to post it. But what i'm gonna write next has no relation to that line i guess.

I've been thinking alot and i realised, I've met so many people, I've seen them change from good to bad, from bad to good. I've made many friends, but one by one they left, I've met new friends so quickly, made new friends and things just revolve. My primary school good friends are more or less just strangers to me now. When i see them i recognise them but i do not speak to them.

So what i'm trying to say is that, over just 8 yrs of life are still in my memories, but in reality, there's so much change. A LOT! And i thinking back, i really wonder how did this changes just happen and some of it happens so FAST and i did not have time to treasure them. I really wished somethings never changed. But now i am fairly happy with my life.

I've something to Drive me on in my life, to always be my reason to continue my life, to always be my source of strenght to continue whatever i do, to be my meaning to do the things i am suppose to do. I think of this things day and night, i only hav one wish for it and one dream about it, the wish i hav might be possible, but my dream of it, in reality, will not ever be able to be accomplished or fulfilled.

~~F~~

Favourites!
Friends!
Family!
Fun!
Many more~~~~

~~G~~

God!
Good Friends!
Games!
Many more~~~~

~~B~~

Brothers!
Buddies!
Best Friend!
Many more~~~~

This are somehow what i want, what i wish for... What do you wish for? I hav many mre wished, but i NEVER expect them all to be fulfilled...NEVER...

Hope you guys understand wht i am toking about. Gtg Byesss ^.^

2009-06-06T18:17:00.004+08:00

Today released from camp at 10 plus... Unexpected... So damn early. Then my stupid plastic bag to carry my uniform broke, so i had to take a taxi home if not i had to hold my uniform miserably. Reached home at about 11.15, bath, unpack then serve the internet a bit then get ready go out to meet mum... Left house at 1 pm. So tired. Now at aunt's house, so nothing to do then blog lor.

My Heart is terribly scarred by past wounds, I will never forget the times when it was wounded.
I get Repeatedly Hurt again, but my Heart longs for you, and I cant keep away from you nor stop thinking about you >.<
I remember that day, when i was very childish and lame, that cause majority of the wounds and scars now.
I will never be the same as before
I have hurt my own heart and those around me just because of this Childish act.
The scar in my heart hurts terribly when i think back about that foolish act i committed that now leads to all my problems, MOSTLY.....

That's all for today... Blog again soon T.T

2009-06-02T19:44:00.002+08:00

i cry...

I cry...

I cry...

I can't feel happiness no more...

I can't feel happiness no more...

I can't feel happiness no more...

I never knew wht was a Best Friend...

I never knew wht was a Best Friend...

I never knew wht was a Best Friend...

I never knew wht was a Best Friend...

2009-06-02T18:34:00.004+08:00

This post was left as a draft until now, the 6 june, then i decided to post it that's why the date is on the 2 june. It is not finished though and i dun intend to, because i dun wanna think back about that day again, i just wanna show you guys wht i was about to write on that day. so here goes:

Today last day for Gold wing. There was a test, erm... i think i may pass. Hope so hahas. Reach home at 5.45... then slack slack b4 that went to macdonald and bought fries and milo. Dunnu wht to do ltr... must pack bag for tmr camp. Btw i hav camp frm tmr till sat. so won't be posting probably until nxt sun or mon.

God does things for a reason... and its up to us to discover this reason. Either through our efforts or through our patience. If God wants us to know the reason through our efforts, then we must work hard to reveal it. But if God will reveal this reason to us eventually, then its now up to our patience and peserverance to wait till the time comes. But we must always rmb, God nvr wants us to be unhappy or feel terrible. This feelings comes from us ourselves. We are the ones who make ourselves feel terrible and sad. God would never want to feel that way.

God make things happen to us because of many reasons, but one REASON above all we must rmb is that he'll always love us and does things for our good ^.^ That alone can put my mind to peace knowing God will be there to guide us through the difficult times. These difficult times are just tests of our Faith towards God. We must always keep a strong faith so as to not fall into Satan's traps and temptations.

Friends... ... ...

They are the very important in my life!!! And i mean VERY!!! I can be angry with them, very angry with them! But never stay angry with them for long! That i am so SURE of!

I dunnu why, most of the times, i am said to be soft-hearted. But now i know why. Because the minute someone says sry to me, i feel no reason to be angry or upset them and most likely will forgive them easily. Its in me, i dunnu its bad or good. But i'm happy with the way my friends look at me now, so for the time being, i guess i won't change that.

Best Friend... ... ...

Besides this year and when i was in pri sch, I hav not really had a best friend. For a LONG time, i dunnu wht is the TRUE meaning of best friends. I hear people saying that, 'this guy is my best friend' 'my best friend and i went out today' and wht so ever. But i really wanted to know wht is the TRUE meaning of best friend. Is it someone who will tell uue everything and share all their unhappiness with uue?

2009-06-01T18:36:00.002+08:00

Today so tired... last slept at 1.30am... then this morning wake up at 5.30am. 4hrs of sleep. Reach TP interchange at 6.50am... take bus 90 to airport road to attend Gold Wing course. First lecture about Air Defence, still could pay attention, then Aircraft Recognition, still could keep awake, then towards the end of that, i started to fall asleep... So after that it was practically me keep falling asleep hahas. tmr still hav to go there, but tmr its not all about lectures, there will be a test.... Pray that i pass ^.^

Well, for most of my post, i would try to write about something that relates to life importance and what i experience. And if i do not hav anything to write about that then i would not really be in the mood to post... Weird me... Hahas.

Well... What's today's important thing i learn and experience??? erm...

In life, a lot of people like to delude other people and that sometimes hurts them emotionally. Its worse when uue are deluded by a Good or close fren. But that's not the WORST. The worst is if uue, urself delude urself from the truth, that'll be very tormenting for uue.
Lies are Music to my ears, but then later the Truth HURTS so badly. but we still try to delude ourselves, which causes more pain in us.

but another is, why do we try to delude ourselves from the Truth?

Some of us, tries to hide it because its very same concept as this... 'Sometimes caring about others feelings, means u hav to sacrifise ur own first'. So people rather hurt themselves then hurt those around them. Some people rather self-sacrifise which will only result in them being the only one hurt then make a big fuss about it and hurt alot of other people.

Other times are just because they can't accept the Truth. It's just too much for one's body to toll it. They rather live in a world of lies then to face the HURTFUL truth.

Well... facing the truth is'nt all that bad, they would just hav to endure immense pain emotionally SOMETIMES! Keeping to the Truth is actually better then sticking to the Lie. A lie will cause uue long term pain while SOME Truth might just give uue and those around you great pain for a period of time. But other truths, might just end everything, which includes ur pain and Friendship T.T

So i really cannot give a definitely solution to this problem. or perhaps only i can't think of the solution. Can any1 give me a solution, how people can stop deluding themselves and face the Truth, but cause the LEAST damage and pain to anyone?

Leave a comment ya ^.^

Gtg. Eat dinner ... Feeling Lost...

2009-05-31T16:24:00.003+08:00

Hey did not post ytd... dunnu why. Did not feel like posting anything. But something did indeed happen ytd.

I got back my report book >.< I definitely am not happy with my results... and that is my REGRET, not doing well, cos my father said he will ban me from my privelages if i do badly for the exams T.T i may not go out nor play com at all...

But amazingly... he did not omit punishment to me after seeing my report book. but even so i feel bad... after the holidays i surely cant play like how i used to ler.. if not sure do badly for SA2.

Most of my friends got lecture and scolding from their parents, but i did not. I guess i cant say its lucky, it's just unexpected. I really hope i can be more serious in my work after the Holidays! I must not disappoint my family. I must not retain.

Another thing also struck my mind after i read one of my friend's blog.

All my life till now, i had a few scoldings from my parents, mostly mother. Sometimes i just stand there and accept it, other times i have feelings of anger in me, like i wished i wanted to rebuke her. But i thought, she'd look after me for almost a decade and a half, and she's gona through so much suffering, hardship whether it's physically or emotionally, it is the WORST thing if i had to scold her back! Sometimes i just can't stand people who scold their parents or elders in their family. Those people are INGRATES! and SPOILED!. Even for me, when i sometimes feel moody, i would sometimes lose my patience to my grandma or dad, and feel very bad after that and really WISH i nvr did that. Our parents looked after us through many years, they would not feel good to be scolded or ignored by us neither would they hav ever expected us to do that. We should always love our parents and if we ever treat them rudely, we should apologise.

The word Sry is very easy to say, but hard to act is out. But if we are able to do both, we can be sure to be Good People of God ^.^

Another thing... I really hate to look after my bro and sis, they can be really irritating and anger me man and sometimes to the point i can shout me head off!

But i hope they'll grow up to remember me as their bro as i will still do my duty to look after them ^.^

Now so bored, dunnu wht to do... Holidays are here... Hope i can make it a fun-filled holiday! Hahahas Byes

2009-05-28T19:19:00.002+08:00

Today was Fun. Came back at about 6.40pm. Bath, then see if i cn use the com... which means i can becoz i'm blogging now. I had a lot to think about on my way home. With regards to my friends, my life and the world's life.

Today, my co-form teacher shared something which i found very applicable to our daily life styles. It almost can apply to anything that is related to mankind.

My teacher first started out with the topic about: 'National Service (NS)'

He said to him it was very Stupid! NS was stupid!
His reason being this article which he had read about. Its about a NS recruit, who one morning, called his mother to tell her he would back home in the afternoon for lunch and that he would be going for his morning jog first, which is required from all NS cadets.
The mother was elated, she spend some time preparing the lunch she was gonna hav with her son.
A few hours after the son had called, the mother recieved another call. The NS people called her to tell her, that her son has just passed on...
He fell while jogging and had internal bleeding in his head; concussion and died.

To be honest, even though i did'nt know this NS guy, i feel the pain that would hav been brought upon his mother, family and all those who knew him. Never would hav anyone though he would just moved on like that.

The message i learned here is, Death comes upon us unknowingly. No matter how young or old we are, it's God who decides when he wants us back. So... i learned that we must cherish what we can cherish now. Be it friends, family, loved ones or even ur neighbours or enemies, we must learn to cherish them all. For we never know when we cannot cherish them again.

We must learn that in life, it's not about a division of people. We're all the same. God's children. Why seperate ourselves as if we were born Enemies. We may hate someone and get angry, but then we must also learn to forgive and forget. Anger and Hate are somethings that will torment you. And not only that, it will somehow torment the people around you.

My Greatest wish now, is that all my friends learn to accept the things that are done upon them and remain happy, remain harmonious.

Why induce our lives with hate, when lives are meant to be lived happily.

Another thing mentioned by my teacher was that, although he feels NS is stupid, he would still do it. Reason being, 'If i dun do it, u dun do it, who will?'. Which means, if you dun protect our country, i dun protect our country, who will? Which i can effectively relate to Friendship, 'If he does not give way, you dun give way, who will?' It take two hands to clap, it take two people to form a friendship, but the sad thing is, it takes ONE person to generate HATE and Two people to exterminate it. So i would not want hate to remain in me for a long period.

If everyone can fully understand this concept, no matter how big a misunderstanding is, it will be able to be exterminated easily. So i really wanna pray that God, that everyone would learn that, Hate will not be something we live on, but something that we will go through and forget about it.

I really hope my friends can understand this and spend their time with each other happily ^.^

REGRET. REGRET. REGRET It grows stronger everyday, consuming mre of my emotions. I can feel its peak coming. I pray that i would be able to take it on when it comes for i know, i won't be able to Avoid it.

Signing off ^.^ Gonna eat dinner ^.^ Byess ^.^

2009-05-27T18:00:00.005+08:00

Today school was SUPER slack. Besides the information talk in the morning, the rest of the day was practically slack, sleep, slack, sleep. But that's not wht i'm gonna talk abt in this post. I have something which i feel i need to pour it out ^.^ its a happy and sad thing for me.

Ytd i was so disappointed in my Good friend, i really intended to give a cold shoulder so badly that he'll feel sry, but thinking about it now, i dun wanna do that liao. Tell you why.

Early morning today, abt 15 min before sch started, i was walking up the stairway with my classmate. He had the key to the classroom and was on his way up. His hands were full with 2 sandwiches and a file. So i offered to carry his sandwiches while he dig his pocket for his key. He found it and so we continued on our way while i held on to his sandwiches. We almost reach the storey our class was on. Then he said,

'You know Brendan, i dunnu why, but u're different from the rest.'

I asked,'The rest?'

'It's like a Genuine Friendship when i'm with you, but not for the rest.'

I was totally speechless. That sentence touched my heart and my mind for the whole day. I kept thinking.
Genuine Friendship...
What does it really mean? i know in some way or another, it means like a True Friend, but why did it catch me by surprise?

Relating it to something else, i just remembered that Games are Games, Friends are Friends. Why should i get upset over my Good Friend for just over a game ytd. I feel remorseful. I hope my Good friend did not feel my anger today and that we still remain friends.

Whether it's by God's grace or by chance that i met this classmate this morning, i really want to thank God. For enlightening me in such a way.

my mind's still thinking...

Genuine Friend?...

Genuine Friend?...

Am i really someone who can give a Genuine Friendship?...

Something else still bothers my heart.

R. R. R
E. E. E
G. G. G
R. R. R
E. E. E
T. T. T

Still fills my heart. Wish it goes away. Cya. gtg ler... BEST Friend wanna play dota with me ^.^

2009-05-26T19:32:00.002+08:00

Anger...

When do i get angry? Do i show it? Well... it depends on who i'm angry with...

If i'm angry with just a classmates who is irritating. Who slams my table so hard whn i fall asleep in class, i would throw my temper right into his face... shouting. But sometimes i feel bad after that, dunnu why although its REALLY not neccesary fpr them to slam my table, i still feel bad. That's just how i treat my friend, a normal friend.

Some people whom i treat much closer to my heart definitely should not get that treatment. I would try my best not to do that to them. For i, would definitely not want to hurt their feelings or make them thing i am just someone who throws my temper around.

But for people whom i treat close to my heart, i really expect them to treat me as a good friend at least. To not deliberately keep something from me, especially someone special. But even if that happens, i cannot get angry. I dunnu want to hurt anyone close to my heart. For this instance, i have to keep my anger behind a smile.

My principles stays, As long my Friends are Happy, so will i be.

If any of my friends are not happy with each other, i really feel bad. Their all my friends, so i should try to do something. And if my friends need help, i would do my BEST to be there, give advice or even just to be a listening ear. There's simply no harm. Its just giving up your time for your friends, i dun think that's any waste at all.

Another thing has bothering me. I really dun feel like saying it. When i think about it, i dunnu wht to do, whether to break down or to just keep it to myself until the time comes. I just wanna say this:
Regret. Regret. Regret. Its fills my body, it feeds on my heart, it feeds on my life. Nothing i do might cure it. This might be the end for me. :(

Yesterday, sean, leon, ryan, samuel and I played dota. It was Sean and i VS leon, ryan and samuel. Before the game, i knew in my heart, if i had gone all out to kill ruthlessly or give no chance at all, i would won the game. But leaving those 3 good friends feeling down.
But to me, a game is a game, Friends are Friends. i rather have Happy Friends, then a Happy game. So i tried my best to not team up with sean against them unless they get really strong. I knew i had this conscience in me that told me that my friends are more important. As long they feel it was a good fight, that's all that matters to me. Although we lost, i knew was happy bcos he still knows he's beta then them but we lost bcos our base was destroyed.
The best thing about the whole thing is that, those 3 rejoiced after the game. I could not help but smiled. I knew they were happy, so was i!!! I knew they would think they will have the potential to defeat us again and will surely play happily again. I dun wan them to play in fear of losing again.
So i say, 'If you wanna care about other'seelings, you must first sacrifise yours'. And to me its all worth it! Even hiding anger behind my smile, its worth it. Although i feel that hurt and sadness in me, looking at my friends rejoice and smile or even to feel that someone cares, makes it all oblivious to me.

Friends are More important to me. I will never forget my Friends. Cya ^.^ Gtg. Friend waiting for me to play game.

2009-05-23T12:33:00.005+08:00

Ytd was my dad's water baptism at Trinity Chirstian Centre. There were 19 other candidates doing baptism too. Their age ranged from 15~85 yrs old. And its just so amazing how they actually chose this path. Before their baptism, they each had to prepare a testimony to be read out in front of the audience. Many of it were meaningful, even an 85 yr old woman who was so inspired just by experiencing God's great work, that she chose to be baptised in ur old age.

God's just amazing, he works wonders uue can nvr imagine, but onli to those who hav great faith. Everyone has failures in life, and these failures are just the times when God is testing ur faith.

U may hav many or even countless failures, but if ur faith in God is so Great, u will nvr giv up and when time comes, God will bless u with everything u ever need in ur life. Be it knowledge, riches or even friends.

Our eyes chooses wht we wanna see and our minds chooses wht we wanna think. Sometimes these are the stumbling blocks, we just don't see God in whatever that happens for our minds and eyes are clouded by the things around us. But as long as we repent and ask God to open our eyes and minds to the things unseen, nothing will be impossible. God have a plan for us, he does not make u follow this path he's planned but guides u to follow it, but we often get distracted and sway off, leading us to many unpleasant things. But as long we ask jesus to guide us back and forgive us, he will walk and lead us in his footprints.

And so i pray that everyone who reads this post, knows that, only with our very own EFFORT, that we can lead a life so blessed by the Lord and not think that we have to sit back and wait for the Lord to do something ^.^ God bless all of uue ^.^

1 day w/o special thing

2009-05-22T15:40:00.002+08:00

Today school was quite slack... did nothing much... chinese onli one period, the other period relief, then POA, go through POA paper 2, correctionss... thn E Maths lesson did nothing much. Onli tok about the STI/AIDS survey and about VE stuffs, recess... dragged on... trying to live alone. Eng look through SAI situational writing... TF (task fulfillment) = 1/10, cant believe it... nvm... thn after that is RME, go to sch hall watch video, 1.30 dismissed. Quite slack right =) but not quite enjoyable for me. A special thing means a lot to me, but if i'm not making it happy or upsetting it, then i rather let it go. I so wish to hang on with it, but it's really no use. I know this special apologise to me alr, but i alr forgiven it, i just cant bear to make it upset agn, so i decided to let it go. I know i won't feel good, but i'm sure it'll feel beta and not get upset by me agn. I'm fighting a battle to against my temptation to get back my special thing, it won't do any good with me. I saw my special thing so many times today, but tried not to near it. At the corner of my eyes, i can see it looking at me, but i jus cannot look back at it. =( suffering is part and parcel of life. i just hav to live thru this. Ok... gtg ler... find sth useful to do... =( Cya

2009-05-21T20:37:00.002+08:00

Hi agn ^.^ Today was practically relaxed in school and was fun after school ^.^ The end of the week is coming... nxt week would be the last week of sch for term 2 ^.^ I reli dunnu how my results gonna effect me T.T i might not be able to play com or go out anymre. Reli wish i cn spend mre time with my frens for this week and nxt week. In life, there are a lot of UPs and DOWNs. For me, i am experiencing a lot of Setbacks (DOWNs) now. I'm trying so hard to take it well and cherish wht i cn now to my fullest. Fortunately, all this setbacks still cant make me as sad bcos of one factor. Well... wht is that factor, hahas. Its somethings special, i feel happy to hav it and everytime i see it, it reli makes me forget all my setbacks. Its so important in Life to hav that and thank God i hav it ^.^ bcos w/o it, loneliness will strike me so hard, i might not be able to take it. I wish everyone has that Special thing in life so that their lives will be lived to a great extent ^.^ Cya gtg... erm... dunnu wht to do nxt... hahas

2009-05-20T18:43:00.002+08:00

Re-did my blog hahas. The other blogskin had bad comments... So long no post ler... A lot has happen though. Like... now i am so INTO DOTA... and Exam has passed... but my results are surely not VERY good T.T Especially physics and SS... 3/4 the class failed according to wht i am told... we're just nt used to it yet. Luckily i pass History if not the teacher's so gonna nag into my head... GTG ler... Bathe thn eat dinner thn DOTA... nowadays always get gastric, ytd was so BAD i could nt play properly. Hope tonight it won't happen so. Cya ^.^

2009-02-25T18:30:00.003+08:00

Its been ages since i last post!!! So sry was damn Buzy... hahas actually not ages larx... onli 2 weeks... heheZ. But this 2 weeks very busy... POA test 3 times ler... In total for the first two months... hav abt 5 or 6 POA test ler... But i like POA still... i can understand easily and pass all my tests... I also pass all my chemistry tests^^ For chinese... i dunnu when i will ever pass hahas... is so difficult to rmb the words... haizzzz. Nvm abt tt. Btw... now i am back to dota-ing since i hav dota in my com... Wahahaha... But still must do HW if nt i kena from teachers... I am so far back in chinese ler... i nvr do 3 chapters ler... beta do 'soon' hahas. Now my phone cant cor or recieve ler... dad not doing well in his job... so cant pay bill haix... hav to borrow phone frm fwens sometimes to cor. I very seldom play audi ler...T.T scared the FAM go bust(dead) ... ><> Haizzz... Sec 3 camp coming... One part of me dun seem to like the idea of this camp to malaysia... but the other part of me seem to be attracted to it... coz ppl keep saying damn fun... i hate camps... got to pack things... then got to stay out of home... hate it... But i hope i will get an enjoyable. Ok gtg ler... got HW do T.T... Byees ppl!!! Hav fun in life^^

2009-02-09T17:01:00.003+08:00

Hi hi... i am unwell again... stomach upset... Haiz... why is my stomach so weak... in less than a year... i hav to report sick to the office abt 3 times alrdy... =_=" Anyway tmr must go school, i hav physics test. I think physics is quite complicated to understand... so i am a bit worried. Hope i will at least pass it!!! Valentine's day is coming... But i hav nothing up... I cant find anything to say but this... I dunnu if i had been too rash or wht... I do feel a bit regretful now... I wish i could make up for it... but i am not sure how to... i wanna listen to her explaination... becoz i knw i was too harsh in my decisions... Come to think of it, i think i am a burden to her too... so many ppl use the fact tt she has a cpl to threaten her... they are so evil... why cant they just treat her nicely... she's not tt bad a person... Haiz... so confused now... dunnu wht to do... should i get back with her or not... if i do i will be a burden to her agn... Wish i could knw how she feels about this... I think i gtg ler... revise for my test... and think of wht to do ... wish me luck... hahas... hav a nice day!!! :D

2009-02-07T11:38:00.004+08:00

HiHi, so much has happened... haiz.... but just a piece of advice~ Whatever happens, we must try and remain calm & optimistic!!! Nowadays so many test... every subj.... test test test...except DnT... I got full marks for POA!!! hahas... i knew POA was for me... actually now is a bit too early to say...lol... btw next week i hav a history test on friday... BUT!!! guess wht date is friday... Its 13 feb!!! Unlucky day... all fail liao hahas... JKJK. must do our best anyway. Next week would be less taxing... Onli hav 2 tests. I bought new clothes for my audi character hahas... i think its quite cool... And i found a new cpl... someone who is quite caring but just a bit blur blur sometimes *cute* mahzzz... Hahas I also changed name^^ Now its almost the same as Glen Daddyy and Ashley Mummyy^^ = -XiaoWenZhu- I choosed 'Wen' because my chinese name is Wen Xing... tt was thought by my cpl^^ so smart!!! hahas. Toking abt cpl... just a few days ago i was hurt...T.T haiz... but nvm... coz when i decided to let go... i felt much better... i should hav known tt this relationship was difficult carrying on... so i decided to let it go^^ Now its like i am free!!! Hahas... i can even smile about it^^ This friday also hav a mass in my school... well i am in the core group which organise masses and all this kind of catholic events!!! Must help out! I also wanna run for the Chairman of this Group! Hehe... I already thought of a name for this grp... will propose it on thurs... KK gtg... need prepare to go out^^ Cya.. remember ppl~ stay optimistic & think thrice when uue make a choice in life... uue might just benefit frm them!!! Wish ya all luck!!!

2009-01-24T12:51:00.009+08:00

hi all~ Hope uue all slept well last nite^^ Last nite i was so tired... Went to school until 1 then after tt i went PC bunk with fwens until 5 plus... Had pride battle sia... My pride with Sean's... It was an unfair fight lor... Sean had Joel Tian, Sylvester and Leon... they play like everyday but i seldom play, then my pride only consist of Ryan Lrong, Hewett, Samuel. Ryan Leong was good, Hewett and Samuel like nvr play for quite long. Hmm. unfair fight. Then i also play audi with laopo<333>Daddy was suppose to come derh, but i guess something happen so he was late. But i did not wan him to come Dohby Ghaut so far, so i went to tampines lor. There we walk walk walk to look for couple rings with engraving derh but dun hav. So we walk to under daddyy block. There we play Duel masters. I so long nvr play ler. Tot i would lose ... but i guess daddyy had a bad hand so he lost all 3 round. Nxt time scared to play with him ler... i think he very pro der. He got 3 pure decks. I onli fought his light and darkness deck. Then daddyy went up to his house put thing, then i knew what his house address is^^ HAHAS Then after tt we walk walk walk... to daddyy school then he buy dinner then after that he send me to bus stop to go MRT. Then went all the way to lakeside sia... i overslept... suppose come down at jurong. Then i rush home... luckily dad not at home hahas... Then i did hw hw hw... then after tt slep liao.

2009-01-20T17:14:00.002+08:00

hihi^^ Wow its been a week since i post... haiz.... i guess i was too busy~ Er... qutie a lot of things to say. erm...last friday i had training in No. 4...haiz...its been so long since i had training...need to get used to it... over the weekend we went shopping... which i hate the most. Shopping is so boring =_=" Yesterday was unwell...stomach upset T.T but today i am mush better ler ^^ today had NCC meeting...today was super slack sia...we had like 10 min meeting~ Hahas...that's a record in history - ths shortest NCC meeting ever... =P Thursday have POA test ... nervous... teacher says its 'chicken feet' but i am nervous because i nvr had a POA test before... dunnu what's it like. Talking about school, i now make clear to everyone... english lessons is the most horrible lesson so far... and i guess it won't change... standard... chinese lessons comes next...hahas CNY coming ler... this fri suppose to release earlier...but the principal had to change his mind... now friday is a normal school day haiz...thought can go out with Glen daddyy^^ but now not sure ler... Glen daddyy also not sure whether he cn go out... i really wan go out T.T i am rotting at home and in school T.T Haiz...today have homework... GTG ler...buaiis...hope uue ppl dun rot at home hahas

2009-01-13T19:23:00.003+08:00

HEY HEY...this few days so busy!!! so no time blog...finally manage to squeeze in some time to blog^^ Haiz... D&T is realli demanding man... i have to design an extra-ordinary MP3 sia...Haiz... Then other subject also contribute to the busy-ness i hav... But overall school is starting to be fun for me...not so boring aft all^^ Last saturday manage to play wolfteam(WT) at my cousin's house and for the first time play with daddyy glen^^ He so pro sia!!! So he and i played with Sean, Leon & Sean's brothers... Seriously...sean's brothers were irritating...haiya...young kids... cant say much abt them... So long no play WT so skill deprove abit but i not so weak ok...i am still ranked abt 3th or 4th among my friend(includes sean's two bros) which in total hav about 12 of them^^ not bad la... Nxt saturday mayb can play again with daddyy....cos MAYBE i will be going to cousin's house^^ look forward to it^^ I also look forward to playing duel masters with daddyy^^ Hahas...so many things i wan do^^... Ok...need go eat dinner ler...Byeeess!!!

2009-01-09T00:02:00.005+08:00

Hi again...its so late liao...So mayb i'll keep this post short. Tmr daddyy is coming back from camp^^ Cant wait...So sianZ at home... No one to sms!!! hahas...when daddyy come back can sms him...Today mummyy also cr8 blog. Actually nw is 12.03 ler...so it was yesterday...hahas. Today sch lesson will be very slack. I will end so early and come home wait for daddyy^^ BTW mummyy also hab prepaid SIM card ler...and she borrowed a phone to use... So now mummy and daddyy can sms each other directly...but sadly still cant cor...coz the phone she borrowed is super old...(grandma's) but at least hab phone to sms her couple can ler^^ This year is dear's PSLE year...worry for her...Hope she do well and dun get so stressed^^ This year will be a stressful year for me too... Especially D&T, actually i like tt subj but it is super demanding sia!!! haiz...must bear with it...All uue students out there must bear with it too...After graduating, it will be so good and all this effort will be worth while^^ Ok le...very tired cant keep eyes open. Gotta go sleep. Buaiis. Gd niteZ everyone^^!!!

2009-01-06T20:55:00.002+08:00

Hihi^^ Today lessons 'officially' started^^ I enjoyed maths the most!!! But today also very tiring... Had to go for assembly then hab NCC meeting~haiz. This Friday is CCA fair^^!!! But we not doing marching yet...we will just be giving out flyers and promote NCC(air)! Another important thing is also gonna happen b4 CNY. There will be a Interview by the NCC(Air) teachers! They will be asking us what post we want to take over as in July. Haiz...so fast!!! I am not ready yet! But too bad. Nw just have to get ready lor. OMG!!! Tmr will be a long day for me!!! I will only end at 3.20 T_T Anyways... I just hab to sit thru the day... HAHAS...someone else hav to get it worst... Daddyy glen tmr hab camp until fri...Poor daddyy hahas... So early in the year already hav camp!!! My next camp is only in March. =P Hahas. Btw today i found out daddyy also play duel master^^ I have played this game for like 2 years ler...^^ Next time i meet him i going to challenge him ... Hehehe... But i think daddyy pro worh...he say he hab so many decks... light...water...darkness... ~ if he is pro...i sure lose T_T Wa!!! Ytd mummyy fainted again... This time serious ler lor!!! Haiz...Hope God bless her tt she will get well soon... Haiz...Nth to write ler... Anyway tired to think ler... Will write again soon...Buaiis nw...Have to go!! ^^

2009-01-04T20:55:00.003+08:00

Another boring weekend has just passed... did nth much just went out but not very long...very sianz. Cant wait for CNY to come... Haiz...tmr is second day of school, have PE... D&T and Hist...haiz...not a very good subjects to start with. But i hav to live with it for the next 10 weeks. SHYT!!! i havent got my Sci(PHYSICS) text book and WB yet...and tmr is the class... I am so dead. Beta get it tmr morning... Nw so sianz... SO STRESS... Ashley mummyy is sad again. Hope Glen daddyy will make her happy again^^ They two must be tgt forever^^ hahas. Today got accessment books T_T I dun like accessment.... Anyway i doubt i will finish them hahas... I hav to go nw... Must pack my stuffs... And hab to settle a prob. Catch ya guys ltr!!!

2009-01-02T18:36:00.006+08:00

Whaoh!!! i haven't blogged like for 7 months...hahas... So much has happened in 7 months...but of course won't say everything lar...its take like a few days to remember everything...Lets get to the more vivid and interesting matters. Hahas. The yr 2009 has just strted... So has the school term^^ Well i cm suppose to be happy but i am not... and tt is because i just found out something. My best best best best friend, Ashton has tranferred school. I am so sad he done tt. But the worst part is he did not even tell me untill today!!! I am so fuming mad...but sametime, so sad. He was the onli one who travelled home wif me in the train. I lived in Bt Batok, but my school is in Serangoon. So its quite far. So no one lives tt far wif me, but ashton... So i at least hab a companion when i go home^^ He went home wif me almost thru out the whole yr. We had all the recess tgt. We talk abt so much things when we were on the train on the way back home. I considered him miie bestest fwen. During the End yr hols i did not contact him much cos he always does'nt pick up his calls. Haiz...and that is hw i missed out such a great change. Haiz...so sad so sad...he just left...nw i am lonely again during my trip home and my recesses T.T. This is the very first setback of 2009. Haiz life has to go on. Covering up this sadness would be the things tt happened in the 2008 yr end hols. I went to cambodia...Very NEW experience^^ I loved it^^ I also made a new fwen/bro/audi daddyy^^, Glen^^. I knw tt me knwing him would nvr be a bad decision. He is gr8 guy^^. I also married in audition^^ My greatest wish is fulfilled. I will nvr forget this holiday. So far in my 14 yrs of living on earth. Its been the best. Partly because of miie fwens, the other part is because of fate tt brought everything into place. e.g Ashley(My bestest mei) found her love, I found a gr8 daddyy^^...hahas, getting married in audi, knwing all the gr8 fwens from school and the whole 2008 yr memories. I cn say this is a nice experience. I cant say it will be good or bad for me, but i will certainly imprint it in my brain for as long i am clear minded^^. I really wan my sec 2 yr back. But it certainly is not possible. Well tt's certainly enuff for today. I am happy to hav redone my blog and am trying to revive it. Hope all of uue out there support me. Today i certainly said too much. But i am not gonna edit it. Cos every word is true^^. Well i assure uue, this side of me does'nt always show itself. But today i just knew i had to get all this memories and words out. And blogging is just perfect for it^^. See ya again^^ Here are some pics of audi...Enjoy...the Guy is me ^^

~HI~

2008-03-24T20:02:00.004+08:00

Have'nt been wrintng for 2 or more days...long weekend... Tomorrow will have NCC meeting but will be short because there is an 'Enhancing Acadaemic Excellence Enrichment Program' at 7.25pm... There is also a new timetable for this term... i like the timetable for monday...it does not have any art or chinese to start the week which is bad. So now can start the week better...

Hey~sleepy

2008-03-22T00:42:00.001+08:00

Hey, blogging at late hour, wanna sleep liao...tmr will be at cousin's house playing, better safe energy. Today just watch the spiderwick chronicles, quite interesting show. Hope you guys will like it Haiz~ sleepy. going to sleep now...see ya

HI guys~ was sick, just got well...

2008-03-20T14:13:00.002+08:00

I had sore eyes yesterday...today did not go school. Today is Maundy thursday for us catholic. My family and i will be attending mass then we go church visiting... and tmr will be a public holiday...Yay~ Hope everyone will have a nice weekend. Ok then, today's entry ends here then...Bye...

My second post~What is PERFECT?

2008-03-18T21:21:00.002+08:00

Hi, Today was not a very bad day, but neither was it a great day. I had NCC in the morning, it was quite short, not what i expected aft 2 weeks of break from training, anyways it was beneficial for me, i had time to watch the grand finale of WORD WARS(debate) in my school. Furthermore, i did not have the hateful english class which is GOOD... Aft school, i went to junction 8 with ashton, he had french class at 4pm. We had Mcdonalds and Ashton realized he did not have enough money to get a set meal, luckily i was there as if i was his saviour sent by God...lol... Aft that i went home alone. At 6 had tuition which i don't like... :( By the way, add me on facebook and friendster. My nick in friendster is 'LiFE SeEKer'. That's all for today. Hope you read my next entry.

My First entry

2008-03-17T23:45:00.002+08:00

Hi there, This is my first entry, nothing much to say. Tmr have NCC(air) meeting in the morning. HAIZ~ School work getting harder to cope and catch up. Today, had IT lesson and created my first own website. Complicated though... Nothing much in my website, but you can visit just for fun... website: www.freeweb.com/bren112413 Ok thats all for today. Have a goodnight...